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2012, 8*, acceptance, awareness, block, breathing, distraction, growth, identity, inclusion, lifetimes, metaphor, poessay, sitting, time, vindication, writing
poessay V:
writing
as practice while
writing
I cannot always find
the Right Moment to write
I cannot always find
the groove enough to breathe
usually because I am not awareing
something within me
circulating as if blood of its own
while I am still chasing
some dream of vindication
just sitting has taught me so far
that it is difficult to just sit
because of the whole chapters
of backstory and echo
that stain the mind blind
of the most infant awareness of being
and the practice of just sitting
is to antidote the stain
by saturating the awareness
through each and every chapter paragraph
word letter and breath
when stuck in writing –
pen poised stare off pick head
until I manually bring my pen
back onto line –
instead I should aware the vagueries as they occur
and widen my writing to include them
and thereby resolve them
as I write …
there
after the last ‘write’ (… no, no that would be too obvious …)
I spent a whole career
with the litany of hurt
in long scrolls of account
so far away
from what I was writing
so intent on the vindication
that I didn’t see it build up
until it burst into the room
and took my ink away
if I was alert I would have included it with wide metaphor
to become the point I was making
or rather widened the point
to include the true intent that I
hadn’t yet fully realised
writing words in their succession
is like being aware while sitting
in that
the words widen to include the vagueries as the awareness does too
but neither the awareness nor the writing
go with
the vagueries
they just watch them
in both practices
I need to let go the investment and desperation
of my tin-pot identities and insistences
and fling my arms wide to embrace them all
each and every one
————w(O)rmholes________________________________|—–
acceptance & lifetimes wormhole: slipstream
awareness & breathing wormholes: on holiday
[writer’s] block & vindication wormholes: the writing’s / on the wall
identity wormhole: now
poessay wormhole: poessay IV
sitting wormhole: ‘I am a secret / superhero …’
time wormhole: Sunday
vindication & writing wormhole: the writing’s / on the wall
johnnycrabcakes said:
“vagueries”…and…”tin-pot identities”…nice.
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