I’ve always wanted to be part of an open, creative, groovy scene. No I haven’t, I’ve always cynicised myself apart from whichever scene I was in, groovy or not. Then I’ve always wanted to be the reference point, the fulcrum, the font, the stability. No I haven’t, I’m immobilised and lost in rage as soon as I am even implicitly questioned. Then I just want to be left alone. No you don’t, you want to be heeded and recognised. Then I don’t know what I want but I know that I’m not getting it. Actually you are getting it, it’s just that you don’t know you’re getting it because you think you need something else.
I can see why this eight year old gets no satisfaction.