[once a] dilemminal [always a dilemminal]

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2011, 6*, being, dilemma, doing, game, groundlessness, identity, pointlessness, role, teaching

                                                                        dilemminal

                        when I work for recognition
                        I am flirting with a game

                        the game is confusing and shifting and
                        I don’t like playing games

                        to go ‘public’ for profile, even so little
                        as acting independently,

                        is to enter a place of breaking ground
                        and flying objects to which I …

have to react

 

I retired at the end of this academic year; I am free – but I will never recover from the damage to my self that being the self that I was obliged to be in order to be recognised that I was doing the job at all, did …

 

 

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being wormhole: happen//ing
doing wormhole: through the pane – poewieview #34
game wormhole: we play / the game
groundlessness wormhole: chartless …
identity & pointlessness wormhole: let it all go
teaching wormhole: lonely and free

 

we play / the game

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2011, Batman, game, identity, life, Riddler, sound

 

 

 

                           we play
                           the game

                           in our oil and
                           our costumes

                           I the solver
                           you the foiler

                           squeaking
                           and clinging

                           as we move
                           the pieces

                           the Batman
                           the Riddler

 

 

 

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Batman & identity & life wormhole: sit
game wormhole: out!
Riddler wormhole: tired – diptych
sound wormhole: zok! and pow!

 

out!

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'scape, 2008, 5*, field, game, girl, muse, portrait, sun

 

 

 

                                on the slight slope
                                of the sunny field

                                stalking down
                                after the ball

                                the girl hinged over
                                like an A and

                                flicked a perfect
                                line back

                                through her legs
                                to second base

                                              – out!

 

 

 

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game wormhole: the / pyrrhic / play
field wormhole: train journey
girl wormhole: street
muse wormhole: London
sun wormhole: 1971

 

the / pyrrhic / play

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2011, 5*, being, breathing, compromise, doing, game, growth, living, naïveté, obligation, pointlessness, sitting, society, talking to myself, thinking, vindication

 

 

 

                      the
                      pyrrhic
                      play

            to be a Big Player is to play
                      a very complicated game
                                selflessly-
                                selfishly
            to know how the game works
                      know when to relinquish my view
                                to obtain the compromise
            to get what I want (as
                      pursuit of the Greater Good)        the Ends

                                                      … chorus?

                      however

            I want to pursue my own self-
                      lessness I want to sit and gain
                                nothing
            but then I become fatally exposed
                      when I try to put some relief
                                found inside myself
                                ‘out there’ persuasive in the world
            and then it becomes part of the Game
                      which I- do-not-want-to-but-have-obliged-myself
                                to Play

                                … chorus?

            my activity should come out of clear naïve response –
                      a totally un-beguiled emptiness –
                                not my success of finding the point
            not my vindication not my self
                      (because then when I am necessarily ignored
                                I become a living death)

            … chorus: don’t
                      don’t ever Play the Game just breathe
            breathe and step
                      one square at a time
                                while the rest of the Game
                                          plays itself

 

 

 

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being & doing & living & naïveté & talking to myself wormhole: inexorable       naïveté
breathing wormhole: wriving
compromise wormhole: the path / no echo
game wormhole: we play a game
obligation wormhole: p                        o                   i                             n                                                   t                            l                          e                                 s   s                                          n                                                         e                   s                                                                                                  s               all around
pointlessness wormhole: anxiety
sitting wormhole: the sea plant
society wormhole: holiday
thinking wormhole: anatta
vindication wormhole: poessay V: // writing / as practice while / writing

 

we play a game

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2011, 4*, Batman, blue, comics, game, green, grey, identity, portrait, Riddler, speech

 

 

 

                we play a game
                while covered in oil costumes
                I the solver
                you the foiler
                squeaking and clinging
                as we move the pieces
                the Batman
                and the Riddler

 

 

 

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Batman & comics wormholes: brown suit
blue wormhole: dream
green wormhole: ‘I stepped on a twig …’
grey wormhole: 20^th century
identity wormhole: just
Riddler wormhole: riddled
speech wormhole: shifting