holding onto | mlewisredford

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2018, 7*, ageing, death, desire, drifting, evening, hands, heart, holding onto, letting go, life, retirement, sleep, song, Ulysses

when I tie myself to a mast
and the evening is closing in without,

without that song that deliciously
extricates my beating heart I know,

I know ‘tis time to loose those bonds
from my numb and welt hands caught

once again and ever by beguiled
desire better, by far, to drift where I lie

^{————w}(O)rmholes_________________________________|—–

death wormhole: moon- // washed
evening wormhole: between
hands wormhole: sufficiently away
letting go wormhole: anxiety
life wormhole: I don’t need to go out / onto the balcony to see behind me / to know what’s going on
retirement wormhole: someone’s got to do it
sleep wormhole: DANSE RUSSE by William Carlos Williams

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2017, 7*, appearance, balance, being, cause and effect, checking, coagulation, denial, doing, empty, fortune, healing, holding onto, karma, legacy, life, lifetimes, lunge, morning, path, Refuge, relationship, room, self-grasping, shutters, statue, trauma, true nature, urge

in my corner of the room
I have only just noticed the shutters ajar –
wondering if I dare push them further apart –

the dynamics of past lifetimes
rebirths of exact measure to the traumas
round which they coagulate; but then, also, the

healing of relationships
which tip towards fortune however
you make them, the balance necessary between doing

all that holding and checking
of all those causes and effects which
comb-through the tangles of legacy but which

can so-easily become the
local point of selfish, and being
insight through the skein of appearences into

their respective empty
nature enabling them all to
appear in the first place which can so-easily

become a stoney denial
of causality into one’s own statue
stuck in pose; the path through which neither

aggravates nor heals;
the practice of Refuge in the
morning and at the urge to lunge of all

my doings, alongside
all the other 6-fingered and 4-
thumbed sisters of this world

this teetered out of a comment made in response to one of Jana H. White’s posts, but I’ve been all the way through her site and can’t find it – she must have taken it down: it would make sense of the ‘corner of the room’ and the ‘6-fingered and 4-thumbed’ references, but, maybe, if you tune out a little, it works nonetheless…

^{————w}(O)rmholes_________________________________|—–

balance wormhole: green and / luminant / to behold
being & doing wormhole: behind / glass walls and wan and hooded eye
life & lifetimes wormhole: amniotic avenue
morning wormhole: The Boats of Vallisneria by Michael J Redford – Working
path wormhole: in the / Citadel / Park / a leaf / new / ly fell