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2012, 7*, age, awareness, being, creativity, doing, identity, letting go, life, play, pointlessness, sitting, spontaneity, superhero, talking to myself, teaching, the Atom, waves, writing, zazen
I don’t play
enough now I’m fifty two
spent forty four years
being super-heroic in a hundred
secret ways to prove my
authenticity
way too serious
leaves me vulnerable – aghh
someone caught a glimpse of me
without my costume
weakening … me … can’t … uhh
stand up
must get … away
grit teeth r-treet
mst bebyemslf
and I don’t play
spon
I am not eous
tan
c r e
e I am not a
v i t
anywhere
near
as much
or as often
as I should
be
when I sit I get all Ray Palmer-ish
or hypnagogic
when I write I get all sizeist or structuralist
or intimidated into block
when I teach I am locked down in the tragedy
EVEN WHILE I SLEEP
I should sit
I should write
I should teach but
nowhere near
asuptightlyasIdo
… so
what do we want?
spontaneity creativity happiness relaxed alert sharp skipping smiley persistent retiring accommodating attention
in what I am doing
when do we want it?
NOW!!!
all the time
as it waves and troughs
throughout the day
not thrilled by bits
not resentful of pieces
holding all with attention
holding all with attention
and write something fucking
happy for a change
start
taking notice of everything
you aware
start
luxuriating and moving on
simultaneously
look at wood
smell the air
and always
always move on
don’t dwell
anywhere
making it
superheroic
and even when you do
don’t make it a biggie
give yourself
a slightly exaggerated ‘tut’
and look at the thing
you are looking at and …
drop
————w(O)rmholes________________________________|—–
awareness & identity & teaching wormhole: dream / career
being & doing & writing wormhole: grey sky
creativity wormhole: Apologia
letting go wormhole: it is knowing what to drop once / everything has been collected together / that makes everything fit
life wormhole: the Schmuck and the Facilitators
play wormhole: at hand
pointlessness wormhole: snow
sitting wormhole: every time ambition / breathes
superhero wormhole: anatta
talking to myself & zazen wormhole: my job
waves wormhole: in the gem shop / on the pier
