zazen

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2013, air, being, doing, grain, texture, walking, zazen

 

 

 

                                zazen

                                              out and about zazen
                                              is throwing out a sheet
                                              so wide it is behind
                                              so strong it stays rooted
                                              so fine it spreads deep into the grain and weave of texture and air          
                                and disappears into
                each step I take

 

 

 

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air wormhole: Le Pont des Arts, 1907
being wormhole: training the mind
doing wormhole: [s]
walking wormhole: I survived
zazen wormhole: while

 

while

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2012, attention, being, doing, living, practice, settling, sitting, walking, zazen

 

 

 

                doing
                zazen

                on the cushion
                off the cushion

                is not choosing
                to focus on things

                in an efficient way
                in a poetic way

                so much as
                incorporating

                what comes
                to attention

                while sitting
                or walking

                or whatever else it is
                that I doing

 

 

 

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attention & doing & zazen wormhole: zazen
being & settling & sitting wormhole: too
living wormhole: slow slow / quick quick / slo / w
practice wormhole: practise what you doing / give what you having / breathe what you remember
walking wormhole: the library, / you know …

 

zazen

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2012, attention, awareness, being, doing, identity, seeing, settling, zazen

 

 

 

            zazen

                           I don’t look for new things
                                                         I don’t need to create
                                          new things to see
            I don’t need to do that sort of work –
                                                         doesn’t work anyway –
                           I need to pay attention
I need to open attention wide-enough
                                          but just enough
            to see what is in front of me
                           to see what is me all along
                                          all the time
                                                         and then
                           I will find more new things to see than I could shake an eyelid at
            there where my eyes are open
                                          here like a pop-up book

 

 

 

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attention wormhole: not that close
awareness & settling & zazen wormhole: zazen in everyday life
being wormhole: Woodbrooke labyrinth / affirmations
doing & identity wormhole: slow slow / quick quick / slo / w
seeing wormhole: stranger / if we met

 

zazen in everyday life

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2012, afternoon, awareness, being, breeze, cars, kitchen, life, openness, settling, silence, sitting, sound, sparrows, Sunday, talking, trees, tv, walls, yellow, zazen

 

 

 

                     zazen in everyday life

                                                              zazen in sitting
                                          on a quiet Sunday afternoon
      the coolant works round the back of the fridge
                     and the breeze shakes
                     the sunny yellow climber
                     over the iron gateway

                     on the road cars approach and pass in a hush and
                                          occasional bikes insist
                                          the familiar doppler
                     sparrows cheep in the trees somewhere
                                                              lost without walls
                     a tv showcases a sport happening somewhere
                                          lost in the commentary

                                                              the open kitchen door closes a bit
                                                                                              the coolant stops

 

 

 

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afternoon & sparrows wormhole: afternoon 290613
awareness wormhole: should // be // aware
breeze wormhole: Beresford Square: // it’s alright it’s alright
cars wormhole: 1968
kitchen wormhole: twice
life wormhole: good / enough
openness wormhole: both
settling wormhole: getting rid / of old books
silence worhole: adversely / mistaking the finger for the moon / again
sitting wormhole: Woodbrooke labyrinth / affirmations
sound & trees wormhole: … the discipline of shamatha / and the waft of vipashyana
Sunday wormhole: Sunday
talking wormhole: dream / 190599
walls wormhole: red net curtains / with appliqué blooms
yellow wormhole: how hard / to meditate
zazen wormhole: slow slow / quick quick / slo / w

 

slow slow / quick quick / slo / w

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2012, dancing, doing, field, growth, identity, living, zazen

 

 

 

                      try too hard and I miss the whole field
                      miss the whole   field and     I feel lost
                                                   and stupid
                      feeling lost and stupid I try    too hard
                                                   to compensate
          and there
                                                                      is where I go wrong

                                   I  should  never  compensate:
                                   too      much      construction
                                   too much effort  to live up to
                                          slow               slow
                                             quick      quick
                                                      s l o
                                                        w

 

 

 

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dancing wormhole: should // be // aware
doing & identity wormhole: Woodbrooke labyrinth / affirmations
field wormhole: ‘the next station / is Hever’
living wormhole: practise what you doing / give what you having / breathe what you remember
zazen wormhole: adversely / mistaking the finger for the moon / again

 

adversely / mistaking the finger for the moon / again

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2012, constantcy, meaning, meditation, moon, realisation, silence, writing, zazen

 

 

 

                      adversely
                mistaking the finger for the moon
                                again

                      lookithat …

                      I sit down to write
                I want to write something good
                after a few minutes I
                      at last
                have the bottom-line wisdom to see
                      that nothing
                      is coming
                so I leave the date and the empty space
                and go off looking for
                      something else

                      disappointed …

                I should have started by stating
                      I had nothing
                      to say
                or exploring the tendons of why
                      I had nothing
                      to say
                or listening to the silence of
                      having nothing
                      to say
                then I would have found whole landscapes
                as I emerged from the trees

                      but I sat
                      and I stared
                at the empty space under the date
                and felt insufficient
                      and worried
                      and annoyed
                      all together …
                before I ran away
                      after something else

                much as I sit meditating …

 

 

 

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meaning wormhole: not fact
meditation wormhole: how hard / to meditate
moon wormhole: August / Adventure
realisation wormhole: twice
silence wormhole: I don’t know what to do …
writing wormhole: successive scenes in the autobiopera / conflict and resolution in each episode // credits: me me me me me
zazen wormhole: the ocean

 

the ocean

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2012, beach, being, ocean, thinking, thought, waves, zazen

 

 

 

                                          thoughts are waves
                                          moving across the ocean
                                          rising and hollowing
                                          without real change

                                          thinking are waves
                                          breaking on the beach
                                          losing their power as they
                                          meander without effect

 

 

 

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beach wormhole: Seaford / 280310
being wormhole: should // be // aware
thinking wormhole: the fall of the curtains / folded on the desktop / and the constant / wondering of airliners
thought wormhole: in sisting / on sitting / in sitting
zazen wormhole: as soon as
waves wormhole: NOW!!!

 

as soon as

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2012, being, doing, returning, talking to myself, zazen

 

 

 

                                                                            as soon as

                                          it goes well
                          drop it
                                                        step back
                                          admire
                          and then
                                          immediately and
                                                        always
                                          return
                          to the ground
                                                        three feet
                                          in front of

     you

 

 

 

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being wormhole: existence
doing & talking to myself wormhole: ‘just slip into life …’
zazen wormhole: worthwhile

 

worthwhile

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2012, doubt, living, pointlessness, practice, sitting, zazen

 

 

 

                                                      worthwhile

                      after a wasted day
                      nothing achieved
                      no recognition
                      pointlessness
                           doubt

                           sit
                      eager to practise
                      doing nothing
                      just doing nothing
                      with a slight smirk
            the most real and accumulating and purposeful thing
                      I will have done
                      all the long day

 

 

 

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living & pointlessness wormhole: I don’t know what to do …
practice wormhole: :just wondering
sitting wormhole: breathe, be / and sit still
zazen wormhole: the fall of the curtains / folded on the desktop / and the constant / wondering of airliners

 

the fall of the curtains / folded on the desktop / and the constant / wondering of airliners

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2012, being, breathing, doing, feeling, letting go, reading, shamatha-vipashyana, talking to myself, teaching, thinking, writing, zazen

 

 

 

                                the fall of the curtains
                                folded on the desktop
                                and the constant wondering
                                of airliners

            breathe in acceptingly
                      not laboured not diverted
                and let it out consequently
                                not anxious not nostalgically

            think inclusively
                      not constructively not definitively
                and let it roll wonderingly
                                not directedly not distractedly

            feel widely
                      not discerningly not discriminatorily
                and let it speak lovingly
                                not despairingly not reproachfully

            write naïvely
                      not militantly not formatively
                and let it read naïvely
                                not with measure not with wealth

            teach alchemically
                      not qualified not quantified
                and let it spread evenly
                                not owned not used

            do all of this sufficiently
                      not too much not too little
                and let it settle as it will
                                free and easy

 

 

 

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being & lettin go & reading & talking to myself & writing wormhole: breathe, be / and sit still
breathing wormhole: gravity
doing wormhole: dream / 130207
shamatha-vipashyana wormhole: it is knowing what to drop once / everything has been collected together / that makes everything fit
teaching wormhole: tiered
thinking wormhole: tapestry
zazen wormhole: really