Spring Warwick breezes
over Bacharach fieldwork and boroughs with
the occasional shift and chirp of David
in the pastel-long morning of the sixties
—–~“O”~—–
1962 (don’t make me over)
she
caught the side of his face as
she said the words she was supposed to
stopped –
accordion-lines, jaw-&-sideburns-handsome –
but didn’t finish
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (wishin’ & hopin’)
she
opened the window
and the still treetops from the city park
echoed across the dusty floorboards
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (wishin’ & hopin’)
step
by
step
I look down at the differing shades
stony beige and grey
I hear the sound of shkrnts and scrapes and find my own clear voice
of ‘but’
and ‘I’
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (wishin’ & hopin’)
steppin’
‘n’ lope-n’
‘n’ swingin’
‘n’ toe-n’
‘n’ makin’
m’ way fr’m
a room to n’other
with only a creak to pretend
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (make the music play)
walking
along the flint and concrete sea wall
curving far far on ahead
between the pastel sea blue of the bay
and the slate windows
of the beige and venetian future
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (this empty space)
in this empty room I hear
echo on floorboard
I can speak clearly now
I don’t need to fill the room
I can open the window
—–~“O”~—–
1963 (this empty space)
the plastic click of
pull-down kitchen cupboards
of all colours through all the
open windows
in Spring
all up and down the alley behind the steep hill of tall Victorian houses
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (you’ll never get to heaven (if you break my heart))
she stood up from the
lime-green tablecloth we bought and walked
down through the streets
between morning shadows …
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (you’ll never get to heaven (if you break my heart))
lala lala lala laaa
la lalala
la lalala
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (walk on by)
up
over the windy hill
on the sunny morning in autumn
the city
sunk lower with each
fresh
step
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (anyone who had a heart)
out of all the gathered crescendos only
my own voice sustained clear
while others waited contrapuntally
for the outcome and rejoinder
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (reach out for me)
… looking at the love
in everyone’s eyes that
they cannot see under their hats
and the weather
—–~“O”~—–
1964 (reach out for me)
down by the fishing
boats the wind still searches through
the aran jumper
—–~“O”~—–
1965 (are you there (with another girl))
the traffic
the cars and the blocks of trucks with their air-breaks and axels pass
and recede
silent
over the bridge on the way past the docks and cranes save for
the line
on the radio
which ends ‘instead …’ and doesn’t resolve until ‘… of me’ to
change down gear
—–~“O”~—–
1966 (I just don’t know what to do with myself)
up in the hills
contemplating the cold guide rail directing-back-to-safety horizon
of mist over the wide wide city –
I’m alright
yes I’m alright
—–~“O”~—–
1966 (trains and boats and planes)
there
are
other parts of the world all
across the possibilities of my heart
and I could follow them all over but that
the deep-green and waxy sadness tells me
what I already know and that I have already lost
where
I am
—–~“O”~—–
1967 (I say a little prayer)
one early
evening
in London
amid the
fug of
cabbage
and the
clack of
cleared
plates
the deep orange sand was turning purple
and the piled rocks remained white and mauve
in the
desert
—–~“O”~—–
1967 ((theme from) the Valley of the Dolls)
1967
a holocaust
happened
quietly
despite all the ultimatums and final words rising crescendos and
muffled maybe
like a settled mist –
houndstooth sound –
heavy on her back
from which
she slowly rose like a hill dewy and scrub-plant green
both clean
and clear
what she had to do for the next decade
—–~“O”~—–
1968 (do you know the way to San Jose)
orange sand and mauve mist
probably twenty
miles across the empty land
the traffic still swooshed
—–~“O”~—–
1968 (promises promises)
the rear of the bus
moved out of the scene – whitened blue
the wide open spring air
reached between buildings – to grimy lime
and avenues rolled down
in every direction – through flash lemon
bolts of mist and haze
across each intersection – and ankle mauve
and slightly too little
worn – for the morning shift of breezes
—–~“O”~—–
1969 (the April fools)
the clean lime morning
and the powder blue walls framed
the stripped wood furniture
perfectly
—–~“O”~—–
1969 (I’ll never fall in love again)
the air of last night’s
cigarettes and alcohol
inside the morning-dark room
the white bean-bag horizon before
the ceiling to floor patio doors
—–~“O”~—–